9 Wonderful Years:)

Every girl has the dream of meeting a great guy that luvs her and wants to be with for the rest of their life. When you are from a small town where theres not many people or anything to do, you can't wait to get out and meet new people. Me being paralyzed and in a wheelchair made me worry that I might not ever find a guy that would trully want to luv me and spend forever with me. The older I got and hadn't met anyone like that was what worried me the most considering I thought you were suppose to fall in luv and get married after high school or college. After not meeting Will until I was 21 and everything being so great, I learned there's a time and place for everything that happens and you'll get what you've always been looking for and wanting when you least expect it, in my case anyways. This last 9 years has been so great, especially the almost 7 we've lived together. We have gone so many places to see so many different things. Its a good thing I like sports and rock music or we'd probably be at home always:) I guess I can't complain about him not liking some things I like since I usually get whatever I want and he takes off of work to drive us to Oklahoma to stay a couple days and visit with everyone. Hopefully the next 9 to who knows how many years is just as great or even greater like we move south where it stays warm!! I luv you very very much Will!!

Puddle of Mudd and Cavo Concert

First of all they wouldn't allow cams in there so I got this pic from the website where the show was. Will took a couple of pics with his phone and once he emails them to me I'll put them on here. This pic was taken from the balcony, we were down on the left side by the stage. Actually right by the big speakers and everytime music was going I could feel it everywhere on my body, even my hair was bouncin:) We could have talked to the bands after the show but there were lots of people wanting to so we left and met up with a friend Will went to high school with. About the concert, Cavo was pretty great and their drummer was HOTTTTTT:) Of course thats just my opinion but I'm always right so there!! The guys in Puddle of Mudd were sickly so Wes didn't sing loud and let the audiance do the singing. I wouldn't have minded if they just played the music cause even though they were sick it was still great! But anyhows we had a great saturday night and when Will sends those pics to me I'll put them on here. They may not be great cause their from his phone but at least we got some!

My Valentine's Present!!

Will got it from edible arrangements and suprised me with it when he got home!

Our backyard after we got a foot of snow!

Our puppy Trigger has to hop like a bunny to get around in it and our lil doggies Spike and Kujo can't go out in it cause its taller than them and they get lost in it. You can see Trigger's tracks from where he's been hopping in it!

My Luv Story!!!

♡Melisa and Will♡

This Sunday will be our 8th Valentines Day together. Will always gets me jewelry or something for v-day, but since he just got me a ring for Christmas I don't need anything like that. I'm gonna try to get him to take me to see the movie Valentines Day, even though he doesn't like that kind of movie:)  He got me tickets to a Puddle of Mudd concert next weekend so he'll probably say thats my v-day gift! We have one of those luv stories that alot of people don't think can happen. We met online in a chatroom four months before he was getting out of the military to come back up here and go to college. The second time he saw me, which was a week after we met online, he said he thought he was falling in luv with me. I kinda thought ok whatever, but I guess he wasn't lying.  What makes it even better is how he has to do almost everything for me cause I'm paralyzed but doesn't care about that!! I wasn't sure it would last cause we were a thousand miles apart and only saw each other for a couple of days every three or four months. Most say long distant relationships don't always have happy endings but ours did. After I finished college in Okla and he was almost done with college I moved up here to be with him. Its been a pretty great almost seven years living together. In 2008 we bought our first house. We have been so many places and saw so much stuff. I should of probably waited and wrote something like this next month  for our nine year anniversary but its a luv story so i'm writing it close to Valentines!

Greatness!!!

Isn't it amazing how in a matter of hours, sometimes just seconds, your world goes from feeling down to happier than you could of ever imagined. There's pain and sadness then you find who or what you've been searching for and your heart is filled with so much joy. It's so wonderful how the Lord, if you believe like me, sees how your feeling and knows exactly what or who to send your way to make everything a hundred times better!!! People shouldn't give up when things aren't exactly how they dream of it being. Look around at everything you have and comes your way, even the bad. That's hard but if you look at the bright side of the bad it makes life easier! Maybe not easier but the bad part won't seem to be as horrible. It's so great how the smallest things like a friend saying hi can make things so much better! Life is crazy at times with some horrible things that happen, but if you only see those things you truly miss the greatness of it all:)

If you only knew.....

Even if you forgive someone for something so terrible that they did you can truly never get over it. You talk to them and smile to try and show you are strong and they didn't get you down, but inside you are screaming and wondering how and why. Do they know how bad what they did really was?; How you can't forget about it no matter how hard you try?; Do they think you probably blame yourself so its ok? Maybe it happen to you so that you could learn to be strong for future things that would happen to you. In time you think you've learned how to live with what happen but then there's those times you hear about it happening to someone else and it breaks you down inside. You want to ask them why so why don't you? Are you scared of what they may say or is it you don't want them to know its something you can't get past? No matter how much you think you've forgiven them when you see and talk to them you still freeze up and are scared that it could happen again even though you know it won't. There's always that song that you hear that has words in it that you wish you could sometimes say to them, then a song that is pretty much about the same thing you're talking about that in away somehow helps you sometimes. Maybe someday you'll figure it all out so you won't be asking yourself the same questions over and over.

If you want to watch these videos to hear the music go down to my playlist and stop the music thats playing now so just the video is going when you click play.

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Things to distract things.......

So I have spent the day redoing my blog background, putting blogs that I've wrote in the past, and slideshows of pics from things events me and Will have gone to on here. That has nothing to do with my title huh? Well, it does if you think about it:) This has been my distraction to keep my mind away from something that happen near a place something like that happen to me in my past. Isn't it crazy that no matter how much you try to not think about things something happens, a song comes on, or you hear someone talking about a subject that makes you relive it all over again. It may just be in your head where you relive it but in away it is harder now then it was when it happen. The things you keep to yourself sometimes hurt you more. When you keep it to yourself though it builds up inside and if something reminds you of it, you fall apart. Only on the inside though cause if it shows people assume its about something completely different. But anyhows enough about it cause my head is starting to hurt and i'm very hungry. Have a great day!

God's Will

There's a country song by Martina Mcbride called God's Will and everytime I hear it I think of Will. Even though Will doesn't see it like I do and there may be others that don't either, but I do so there:) Anyhows to my point....Will's kinda like an angel sent my way. We met online in a chatroom when he was in the army stationed at Fort Sill, 4 months before he was getting out of the military to come back up here where he's from to go to school. I figured he would get scared and never wanna see me again when he saw that I was paralyzed and everything that had to be done for me and could happen especially after he moved back home, but I was wrong. Even though we lived a thousand miles apart for two years and the fact he has to do pretty much everything for me he still loved me and wanted to be with me. Will is one of the greatest and most caring people ever. He has taken me so many places to see and do everything I pretty much dream of doing. I'm sure he would luv it if I could do things for myself and that I was from somwhere closer to Chicagoland so he didn't have to drive so far when we go home to visit my family, but he doesn't seem to mind! It's so amazing to have the luck of meeting someone that is so great with it all. I mean I'm sure that he's glad that I luv to go and see stuff that he happens to like and that me being in a wheelchair has great advantages sometimes:) But sometimes its like I'm not in a wheelchair cause of they places we get to go and things we get to see and do. Maybe its cause we don't see being in a wheelchair means you should stay home and never go out to public places like some people see it. I've been trully blessed that he was sent my way and I hope he see's how great he is for everything he does and has did.

The beginning of my blogs!!

So I got tired of live journal, don't write blogs on myspace much, and I don't like how facebook doesn't have a blog section like myspace, soooo I'll just start writing blogs in here:) Its odd that I'm still awake this late. Me and Will usually go to bed by 9 and if we don't the doggies start whining cause their ready to! Of course we're only up cause Will is playing Xbox 360 live MW2. Its good our house isn't close to others cause people would think the worst if they heard how loud he yells, especially when he's losing. So, yesterday was 14yrs since the wreck I was in that I got thrown out and busted my head hard and broke my neck. It sometimes feels like I've been paralyzed forever but then again it feels like just yesterday I was playing basketball, turning flips, and walking around Manitou. I'm not sure if it seems like a good day to remember to my family and friends that saw me in ICU on life support and stuff, but to me it is. Mostly because I'm still here, 14yrs later and after having a couple of more almost death experiences. Being paralyzed and not able to do all that much for yourself sucks more than you could ever imagine, but because it happen I've met some amazing people and been places and seen and done things I probably never would have if it hadn't of happened. Life has been pretty great for me. Meeting Will and him not caring about me being paralyzed or what all he has to do for me is one of the greatest things ever! If only I could magically make it so we could move way far south where it stays warm, then life would be even better:) But anyhows, we are going to bed now so bye bye for nows!!