If you only knew.....

Even if you forgive someone for something so terrible that they did you can truly never get over it. You talk to them and smile to try and show you are strong and they didn't get you down, but inside you are screaming and wondering how and why. Do they know how bad what they did really was?; How you can't forget about it no matter how hard you try?; Do they think you probably blame yourself so its ok? Maybe it happen to you so that you could learn to be strong for future things that would happen to you. In time you think you've learned how to live with what happen but then there's those times you hear about it happening to someone else and it breaks you down inside. You want to ask them why so why don't you? Are you scared of what they may say or is it you don't want them to know its something you can't get past? No matter how much you think you've forgiven them when you see and talk to them you still freeze up and are scared that it could happen again even though you know it won't. There's always that song that you hear that has words in it that you wish you could sometimes say to them, then a song that is pretty much about the same thing you're talking about that in away somehow helps you sometimes. Maybe someday you'll figure it all out so you won't be asking yourself the same questions over and over.

If you want to watch these videos to hear the music go down to my playlist and stop the music thats playing now so just the video is going when you click play.