Things to distract things.......

So I have spent the day redoing my blog background, putting blogs that I've wrote in the past, and slideshows of pics from things events me and Will have gone to on here. That has nothing to do with my title huh? Well, it does if you think about it:) This has been my distraction to keep my mind away from something that happen near a place something like that happen to me in my past. Isn't it crazy that no matter how much you try to not think about things something happens, a song comes on, or you hear someone talking about a subject that makes you relive it all over again. It may just be in your head where you relive it but in away it is harder now then it was when it happen. The things you keep to yourself sometimes hurt you more. When you keep it to yourself though it builds up inside and if something reminds you of it, you fall apart. Only on the inside though cause if it shows people assume its about something completely different. But anyhows enough about it cause my head is starting to hurt and i'm very hungry. Have a great day!

God's Will

There's a country song by Martina Mcbride called God's Will and everytime I hear it I think of Will. Even though Will doesn't see it like I do and there may be others that don't either, but I do so there:) Anyhows to my point....Will's kinda like an angel sent my way. We met online in a chatroom when he was in the army stationed at Fort Sill, 4 months before he was getting out of the military to come back up here where he's from to go to school. I figured he would get scared and never wanna see me again when he saw that I was paralyzed and everything that had to be done for me and could happen especially after he moved back home, but I was wrong. Even though we lived a thousand miles apart for two years and the fact he has to do pretty much everything for me he still loved me and wanted to be with me. Will is one of the greatest and most caring people ever. He has taken me so many places to see and do everything I pretty much dream of doing. I'm sure he would luv it if I could do things for myself and that I was from somwhere closer to Chicagoland so he didn't have to drive so far when we go home to visit my family, but he doesn't seem to mind! It's so amazing to have the luck of meeting someone that is so great with it all. I mean I'm sure that he's glad that I luv to go and see stuff that he happens to like and that me being in a wheelchair has great advantages sometimes:) But sometimes its like I'm not in a wheelchair cause of they places we get to go and things we get to see and do. Maybe its cause we don't see being in a wheelchair means you should stay home and never go out to public places like some people see it. I've been trully blessed that he was sent my way and I hope he see's how great he is for everything he does and has did.

The beginning of my blogs!!

So I got tired of live journal, don't write blogs on myspace much, and I don't like how facebook doesn't have a blog section like myspace, soooo I'll just start writing blogs in here:) Its odd that I'm still awake this late. Me and Will usually go to bed by 9 and if we don't the doggies start whining cause their ready to! Of course we're only up cause Will is playing Xbox 360 live MW2. Its good our house isn't close to others cause people would think the worst if they heard how loud he yells, especially when he's losing. So, yesterday was 14yrs since the wreck I was in that I got thrown out and busted my head hard and broke my neck. It sometimes feels like I've been paralyzed forever but then again it feels like just yesterday I was playing basketball, turning flips, and walking around Manitou. I'm not sure if it seems like a good day to remember to my family and friends that saw me in ICU on life support and stuff, but to me it is. Mostly because I'm still here, 14yrs later and after having a couple of more almost death experiences. Being paralyzed and not able to do all that much for yourself sucks more than you could ever imagine, but because it happen I've met some amazing people and been places and seen and done things I probably never would have if it hadn't of happened. Life has been pretty great for me. Meeting Will and him not caring about me being paralyzed or what all he has to do for me is one of the greatest things ever! If only I could magically make it so we could move way far south where it stays warm, then life would be even better:) But anyhows, we are going to bed now so bye bye for nows!!